It seems I've got my antisocial days again. I don't want to talk to people and I don't want to go out. Every time someone calls me I make up excuses and hang up. *sigh*
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I've had one major relationship in my life I can feel proud of. It broke up because of me going to a boarding school and she couldn't take it, even now she avoids me because she's scared the sight of me will rekindle feelings that she's been trying to suppress while I'm gone. This, as you can imagine when a girl you absolutely adore is convinced she can forget about you, has had an extraordinary mental effect on me to the point of which lack of affection very nearly drove me insane. From seeing her every day and in doing so having some for of physical contact, to being alone in the space of a day hit me very hard. If anything, I'm only just recovering from it still, and it's left me with a kinda warped view of courtship because affection has come so easily over a period of 9 months...
Just saying this makes me feel like a gigolo.... *shudder*
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Goldbrand wrote:I've had one major relationship in my life I can feel proud of. It broke up because of me going to a boarding school and she couldn't take it, even now she avoids me because she's scared the sight of me will rekindle feelings that she's been trying to suppress while I'm gone. This, as you can imagine when a girl you absolutely adore is convinced she can forget about you, has had an extraordinary mental effect on me to the point of which lack of affection very nearly drove me insane. From seeing her every day and in doing so having some for of physical contact, to being alone in the space of a day hit me very hard. If anything, I'm only just recovering from it still, and it's left me with a kinda warped view of courtship because affection has come so easily over a period of 9 months...
Just saying this makes me feel like a gigolo.... *shudder*
Dude, that sucks.
Oh and grats mars! I think.
Whats new with the Zombie Master? Apart from depression, loneleyness, and the crippling want to obliterate myself, I got new shoes. Is nice!
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And you father smelt, of Elderberries!"
Goldbrand wrote:I've had one major relationship in my life I can feel proud of. It broke up because of me going to a boarding school and she couldn't take it, even now she avoids me because she's scared the sight of me will rekindle feelings that she's been trying to suppress while I'm gone. This, as you can imagine when a girl you absolutely adore is convinced she can forget about you, has had an extraordinary mental effect on me to the point of which lack of affection very nearly drove me insane. From seeing her every day and in doing so having some for of physical contact, to being alone in the space of a day hit me very hard. If anything, I'm only just recovering from it still, and it's left me with a kinda warped view of courtship because affection has come so easily over a period of 9 months...
Just saying this makes me feel like a gigolo.... *shudder*
That does suck. I still have a frozen image in my mind of my first 'love.' It's imprinted in my brain of when her friends and I went to a pool to go swimming. I said something silly and she looked back at me and grinned and there was just something about it. It was like a splash of cold water in the face or something. I remember that smile of hers like it was yesterday, she was wearing big brown rimmed sunglasses that hot chicks always wear. I've seen her smile a million times but it was just something about that time that I realized I never cared for someone to that extent before.
Well I started dating this girl two years ago, I was 15 she was... just turning 14?
or something like that I'm not good at math
anyways, then it was young friends who thought they where in love, but one problem her mother hates me for no aparent reason
I'm always loved by the family of the girls, I've had them tell me out right that they would want me to date said daughter.
so i was shocked as such i only see her every few months we once went six months with out seeing one another.. now I'm going ack to a school where I'm likely to have a few many fights, just to see her
i spent the last year working to this goal and a few months it shall come to be
I'm almost 17 now and she turns 16 soon.... its going to be hard to wait but things should be beter after words
Dude you guys are luckly. You've had actually dated some one before. I mean I have the biggest crush on someone at school, as in I actually love her, but I cannot express these feelings for the backlash would ensure. And to make things worse, I'm confused as to how she feels about me, there have been times when I think she liked me too, but then there are those times where she avoided me for no reason. So yeah, the Master of Zombies is caught between a rock and a hard place, so it would seem...
But enough of my rambling about dreams of what shall never be...
"Your mother was a hamster!
And you father smelt, of Elderberries!"
Well I'm at a confusing time in my relationship, because of tension at home (my GF lives with us) I'm having serious doubts about us. Maybe I'm just not qualafied to put up with a Bi-Polar Mum and Girlfriend.
I'm here to help... Well... sorta...
But as for the topic...
I said before that I'm in love with someone, but not dating, well, now that I'm moving back to Christchurch some time this year, I guess I'm out of time to act on it. I told her this, (that I'm moving, not that I'm in love with her...) and she kinda burst into tears... Apparently, she's going to: